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//Whoever She Is//The Maine//
 
Full name: Adrianna "Adri" Charmina
Age:17
House: gryffindor graduate
Year:n/a
Job: currently working part time at Scribbulus Writing Instrumets, but she's hoping to get a job working at the ministry sometime soon
Family:
+Father, Armando Charmina
+Mother, Elena Ilyias-Charmina
+Brother, Mathias Charmina, 24
Pet: none
Past/Current/Future relationships:
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I've decided that I'm probably a very bad person. Basically I semi (or fully, not quite sure) went off on the guy I liked after school because he gave me the haha let me rub it in your face type look. So i just went off, because I'm competitive and can't stand loosing. And he honestly didn't say anything, and he just left. And then I felt like a bitchh so I messaged him apologizing but he doesn't have a phone and idk if he'll read it before tomorrow and yeah. I also said I'm sorry I suck, which could come off completely wrong..whoops my bad. Funny how I normaly have no problem articulatin my thoughts, other than when it actually matters. Sorry dude.
 
And the other hand, all my friends think we're "wheeling" but I'm pretty sure we're not, though the damn eye contact every like 3.5 seconds doesn't help me at all. We just work but meh. Stupid religious conflicts. And by that I mean me not being like the slightest bit religious, yet still believing in god. Whoo, my life is a big mess. Why do I even care to try sometimes?
 
Also the school trip that we were both on went well, I think. You know besides when he sprayed water on me, and had to perseude me not to go spend money in Fossil when we went to the mall for lunch. We spent almost all day together, but he sat with his best friend on the bus behind me, and they went to the apple store and I didn't. But other than that....
 
Actually I'm pretty sure I called him a dumbasss on that trip, whoops. No, I'm officially a bad person, and also very bad at being nice to people I like. My bad, like I said, I suck. Still hoping that didn't come off wrong, because yeah.
 
Congrats if you ever find the time to read this stupid ramble of boys and life, because that's all I ever seem to talk about.

So guess what guys, I like a boy again, big surprise there. I've known him for a few months, and we've been friends the whole time, but idk, there's just something about him. Ugghh, it's so damn frustrating, because he'll do things for me he won't do for other girls, like he invites me to play soccer after school with his friends, but then I think, maybe he sees me as one of the boys. But also one of my guy friends saw us walking to class together because we had class just down the hall from each other and he said it looked like we were dating. We have deep conversations about things, and they come easily, compared to the last guy I liked who jerked me around and conversations were quite forced for fear that he would just leave again.
 
I obviously want to talk to him a lot more, but we only have one class together and I never see him around at lunch, plus he doesn't have a phone. I think I'm going to wait until our class trip downtown and see how he acts then.
 
But on the other hand of this whole situation, I can't imagine how my father would act if I brought home news of this new boy. Like I was scared my last flirtationship/friendship/being emotionally used could go over badly because he was hindu, and my dad has a bad perception on people from middle eastern countries, but this boy would be worse to bring home, I know it. He gets amazing grades, like moi, but he's muslim (and my dad's perception of muslims comes from the negative side of the islam religon that is shown on the tv and in the media) and he has facial hair, and I feel like that would make my father dislike him more.
 
asdfghjkl my problems are deep, but I guess that last part is only a "what if" but still. I should just find myself a nice white hockey player just to make everyone shut up, and to statisfy my growing desire for a cuddle buddy (which is quite out of character for me as I normally dislike people touching me)
 
yupp, so I'm basically sure no one read all of that mumble jumble but if you did, congrats, and if you have any advice for me about anything, or what you think of the situation, I would really love that

#thegoldenbill #tgb
 
Raya was sitting near the edge of the forest. Sneaking off into the forest had been one of her favourite things before the new rules were put into place, and she was dying to go back and explore once again. She played aimlessly with her zipper. She was inches away from the trees, all she really needed was some one to go in with.