So guess what guys, I like a boy again, big surprise there. I've known him for a few months, and we've been friends the whole time, but idk, there's just something about him. Ugghh, it's so damn frustrating, because he'll do things for me he won't do for other girls, like he invites me to play soccer after school with his friends, but then I think, maybe he sees me as one of the boys. But also one of my guy friends saw us walking to class together because we had class just down the hall from each other and he said it looked like we were dating. We have deep conversations about things, and they come easily, compared to the last guy I liked who jerked me around and conversations were quite forced for fear that he would just leave again.
I obviously want to talk to him a lot more, but we only have one class together and I never see him around at lunch, plus he doesn't have a phone. I think I'm going to wait until our class trip downtown and see how he acts then.
But on the other hand of this whole situation, I can't imagine how my father would act if I brought home news of this new boy. Like I was scared my last flirtationship/friendship/being emotionally used could go over badly because he was hindu, and my dad has a bad perception on people from middle eastern countries, but this boy would be worse to bring home, I know it. He gets amazing grades, like moi, but he's muslim (and my dad's perception of muslims comes from the negative side of the islam religon that is shown on the tv and in the media) and he has facial hair, and I feel like that would make my father dislike him more.
asdfghjkl my problems are deep, but I guess that last part is only a "what if" but still. I should just find myself a nice white hockey player just to make everyone shut up, and to statisfy my growing desire for a cuddle buddy (which is quite out of character for me as I normally dislike people touching me)
yupp, so I'm basically sure no one read all of that mumble jumble but if you did, congrats, and if you have any advice for me about anything, or what you think of the situation, I would really love that